starbucks guy : the finale

so i confirmed today via my new twitter buddy (thx again @twowheelgeek) that the note was indeed delivered to starbucks guy, and no i have not yet received a phone call. ah well. i still don't regret doing it. hopefully he enjoyed his coffee, and at least now i know right? yep. now i know.

it's tough not to get discouraged out there. i have encountered several men lately who have gotten close to me to only gain an introduction to several of my friends. i'm sure they'd deny it if i flat out asked, but being smarter than your average bear, i can pretty much see right through it. and while we're all just out there to meet "the one" i think it's really shallow to hurt someone along the way to get there.

i was really going to try to make this entry a bit more positive, but i'm really cranky today and i can't quite put my finger on why. i think the issue is more just frustration with the rest of my life, so it's putting a damper on my attempt at being light hearted and uplifting when it comes to the dating world. and that's fair enough. you can't be positive all the time, and as long as you don't drag others down with you i think it's acceptable from time to time.

unrelated side note: i need my dating magician to come back, or at least pay attention to my emails. i need to go for a run & sweat a little. i need to hit up the batting cage and beat the crap out of some balls for an hour or so. i need to find out about the move-in date on this apartment, and i need my $395 back from the fucking furnace.

see? lots on my mind. i probably wouldn't be particularly good company for starbucks guy right now anyway, although truthfully, i don't know that we would need to talk.

HA.

on another unrelated side note: the ex (yeah, the ex) dropped me a text message after i ran headfirst into him at the game on friday up in edmonton. i ... am not sure why, although i found out that he and his new gf are no longer together. it's shocking how little this affects me, and i think (much to my happy surprise) that i am truly over him. i can say now that i learned a lot about myself and what i want out of a relationship. i am not ready to settle. and (this is assuming he gives me back my fucking super nintendo) i can say now that i truly wish him happiness in whatever path he chooses. i think this is what you call being healed. =)

half of me wonders if this doesn't have to do with the butterfly feeling i still get when blue eyed guy texts. the excitement of something new proves to be a good distraction. the other half of me knows better and is going to go for a run now.

kba.