sunday guy

there comes a time after every relationship's end that you brush yourself off and decide that there has to be another guy out there for you. sometimes this happens entirely too soon and you're still a brokenhearted mess. unfortunately for probably everyone involved, this happened sooner rather than later for me.

i looked in the mirror one morning and thought of two things.

firstly, i needed to really invest in waterproof mascara because the raccoon look was just not doing it for me. the second thought was that if there is one person in a million that you can connect with on a deeper level, well, that means that there are 6000 people that you could conceivably connect with on this planet. so damnit, i'm going to find one.

sunday guy messaged me first, which is always a good boost for the ol' self esteem. immediately i'm struck by his geekiness. generally, i'm drawn to geeky men because they tend to be more intelligent and i have more in common with them. he talks a bit too much about computers, and i have to consistantly remind him that i have absolutely no idea what he's talking about. we talk for awhile on msn, and agree to meet for a date.

i'd forgotten how it felt to have those butterflies pop up in your stomach as you're getting ready for a date. it was nice to be excited about something again. we meet for coffee at a starbucks (minus two points when he's bought & paid for his own coffee before i get there!) and sit down to chat. i bring christmas cookies to show my domestic side. i have no idea why.

there's no funny or horrific end to this one - those stories will come later, my friends.

i just wanted to explain this one because he is key in my recovery. he looked at me with those dark eyes, and i could tell immediately that he found me beautiful. and even though i knew in the back of my heart that i was nowhere near able to be the girlfriend that he deserves, i appreciated that he tried and supported me when the tears would still come randomly. he is a beautiful soul through and through and will make one lucky girl very happy someday.

/mush.